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i make about 3g's a month, maybe a lil over, i got my OWN apartment, although rent is kind of expensive at almost 1/3 of my salary per month, i got a hatchback that im close to pimpin out, i got a gf, and im almost out of debt, life is awesome, and although i work full time, i am enjoyin it :D
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i moved out of my house, im broke, in debt, unemployed (at the moment anywayz) well, kinda sorta, i have a piece of shit for a car, which got a flat the other day, me and my roomates r on the virge of gettin kicked out of our apartment cuz we're ALL broke and cant come up w/ rent. i gotta say, i have never gotten scrwd this hard, lol, but i guess its still all good...
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[29 Apr 2005|12:07am] |
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remember when u were a lil kid and u'd go to the store w/ your mom. u'd be broke naturally and never really cared for anything in the store until u reached the gumball machine. they'd have the gum machine, and then the one next to it was this jewelry one. it was a whompin 50 cents and u kno at that point in life when ur 3 or 4 thats a lot of money, if u even KNEW what money was. u always fantasized with getting that one lil shiny watch. it was the one different thing in there that just made u wanna waste your 50 cents, your cherished 50 cents, knowing that u maybe, just mayb could get that treasured item. you put your money in it, turned the dial, and unfortunately u ended up with a bracelet and on top of that disappointed. u still love that watch, but u knew and know damn well that u have no chance at it. but deep down u always held and hold hope that that one watch could and would be yours. u dont lose hope on that, yet, u pretty much give up thinking about it, u still want it, but its not an obsession, just a curiosity of how it feels and what its made of. u still cherish it, but dont really look for it. instead u end up always settling for the bracelet or plastic ring knowing that that watch may not even really exist in that machine and that the watch is probably to good for u anyways cuz u might not be adequate to take care of it, or worse, u could break it, and you realize that the odds of u ever getting that watch, r slim to none. however, u move on, and just make ur self satisfied with the bracelet, and although, granted, the watch is still, and will forever always be embedded in your mind, you teach yourself how to be happy with the bracelet because the bracelet is all u can afford to get, because all u have r 50 cents, which r good for one turn of the dial.
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ok so i have a deep ass crush/like whatever u wanna call it, for this girl. she's perfect, at least for me, in just about every way possible. i mean she already knows what she wants for everything. life, kids, house, home, hell, im positive for a fact that she will take damn good care of whomever makes her his wife. but problem is, i cant have her, or so it seems, and the feeling does suck dont get me wrong, but its not a hopeless feeling. usually it is, and to a certain extent i dont understand it. because i mean i've only loved one girl, christina, but, even she never knew me the way that this girl does, i dont ever hide anything from this girl and i kno that if im sayin somethin and just stop, she can finish my sentence for me, but i just dont understand how i kno i cant have her, yet not feel hopeless. not that im complaining or anything, but just stating down my thoughts, and i gotta say it fuckin feels great. anywayz, in other news, heard kim had a baby, which makes me curious where she had her girl, cuz i got called from bentaub the other day and i was freakin out that someone from my family was in the hospital, but turned out negative. anywayz, yea, kids, at the moment, i still am one at times, no thanx, they're fun, but im not ready to b a dad yet, and others who rnt ready either, r scrwd cuz they gotta b ::cough:: john ::cough cough::
anywayz, ltrZ kidz
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ive been rather thoughtful the past few days. contemplating to many things at once, but, i guess its not all bad. at one point or another i do have to think about it. ive ran thru so many unexpected emotions and feelings that it is annoying to a certain extent, specially when shit catches me off guard, something im not used to at all, but shit could b a lot worse, right? anywyz, i didnt go to work today cuz i have no car cuz the wiring in it decided to fuck up, or really i helped speed up the process by smashing a wire, so im at home, w/ my lil bro, a lil bored out of my mind, but it could b worse. i could b thinking about stupid shit, or asking myself a lot of questions like i have been the past few days. anywayz, im sorry for everything thats going on, i really dont know how to simply put im sorry and have you understand it. i care for u so much its becoming really annoying knowing that i sorta brought u down w/ me into this "what if" and question world, please forgive me, within yourself, and i dont even need u to tell me u have or whatever, i just wanna know that ur ok, and that ur at rest. i love you my dear friend.
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yo yo, ok so i should b out tonite but decided not to cuz i just wanted to kick back and relax, and that i am. anywayz, nothin much goin on, unfortunately spring break is over, so im scrwd back into school once again, but this time i think that i will actually go with more frequency, heh. anywayz, work is there, i work at compusa for those that dont know and recently i was hired at fry's. however, im rejecting that job cuz my current job is THAT tight. pay was gunna b great over there but, NO THANX. anywayz, ppl crack jokes on me saying that i switch jobs like sox cuz i never last, it was about to b tru but i didnt quite let it this time. anywho, no gf, although at times i wish i did cuz it does get lonely at times.
saw lauren brenda and jessica yesterday. it was nice seein them, almost makes me say i miss high school. which reminds me, since im supposed "vp" and jessica bowser is "p" dont we have to plan the reunion? now that, i cannot let go by, that shit will b crunk. think of all the crazyness, we'll c who were scrwd w/ til the day we die, j/k, we'll crack jokes on each other, although that never ends, and so on and so forth.
anywayz, i just felt like typing a few words as im in my relaxed mood, which is funny cuz im jammin the completely wrong music for a relaxed mood....
ltrZ
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Legend: "(answer)" means its a different answer from what was originally there....
Single/Taken: "single"
Gay/Bi/Curious/Straight: straight
In or out?:
Height: 5'4"?
Weight: "162"
Hair: black
Eye Color: dark brown
DOB: october 21, 1985
Shoe Size: 9
Location: houston
High School attended: carver
College attended: "UH main campus"
Favorite Color: dark blue, bright yellow, black
Number of siblings: 3
Number of step-siblings: none
4 Least favorite kind of music: all the yeehaw muzic
Best excuse used as a child to get out of doing chores: "i gotta go poop"-never mattered cuz i had to go do the chores afterwards anywayz, the funny thing is that i still have this habit...
First sexual act: kindergarten-i lifted this girls dress up and saw her panties
First sexual encounter:
Largest member that I've seen:
Smallest member that I've seen:
Current Favorite TV Shows: simpsons, malcom in the middle, j'lo, 8 simple rules, that show that comes on the wb w/ that hispanic kid
Inseam: 28, im short
Waist: "32"
Hat Size: i dont know, i dont wear them
Favorite Airline: continental, their first class is awesome
Previous Occupation: "still in sales"
Current Occupation: "i'm a salesperson at CompUSA"
Current Number of Cd's I Own: i own about "1500 songs on my 2 computers"
Hobbies: sleepin, video games, racin, talkin about what im goin to do to my car w/ no money to back up my words
Most thrilling adventure in my life: i dont know, pick one of the times that i've almost killed myself
Favorite Videogame System: i dont really have one, im more a computer guy
Most highly ridiculed teacher in high school: master bates, debrash, ms corny, fuck was there a damn teacher that didnt get ridiculed hardcore?
Car(s) I'll never buy: probably korean
Favorite beverage: vanilla coke
Addiction: "i dont think i have one"
Second Favorite Beverage: "monster lo carb"
Third Favorite Beverage: coke
Current Car: 1996 mitsubishi eclipse gs
First Car: 1996 eclipse gs
Car that I'd love to own: "that new supra thats coming out"
Grossest Story of all time: i dont know, oh yeah i do, no i dont...
HATED foods: "anything w/ too many vegetables sauteed into it"
LOVED foods: fajita, pupusas, depends what im in the mood for
Biggest sexual disappointment as a child:
Color of my first car: its dark green
Physical defect: im short, my ears, i got elf ears, the fact that im short doesnt help any
Weird habit of an x-workmate:
Favorite cartoon: simpsons, king of the hill from time to time, tom and jerry
Cartoon characters : jerry, bart
First girl I ever kissed: it depends on what u consider a kiss, i dont consider a kiss a peck on the lips, so ima type that christina was the first chic i ever kissed, besides it makes it easy on me that way i dont have to go back til kinder and shit
First guy I ever kissed: never happened before and never will
Underwear that's on me now: hanes boxers
Underwear type that I prefer: boxers
Preferred Favorite Clothing Store: "express", "banana republic", "gap", "armani exchange"
Favorite Clothing Store (Realistic): "all the ones above except for armani"
Least Favorite Clothing Store: walmart?
Romantic?: "i think i can b, not sure though"
Kind of Person I search for: "someone whom i can laugh w/, someone whom i can have meaningful conversations with, yet still b able to laugh about roadkill with, a girl whom i can take care of, and visu versa, and a girl w/ a beautiful face, and even more beautiful heart"
Top or Bottom?: "bottom"
What's missing from my life: sleep, my baby in my arms, food at the moment, some good headache medecine, money "<-- that still hasnt changed, lol"
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it seems so hard
hard it so seems
so it seems hard
because hard is hard
because hard is really a lust for words
and a must for words
because although one and one, add up to make two
two doesnt add up with one to make three,
instead they make one.
because money isnt everything
because life isnt everything
because love isnt everything
without a meaning
just like detergent has no meaning if it werent for dirt
because everything has a nemesis
problem with me is,
i am my own nemesis
why?
why such anguish?
why?
why such pain?
why?
why such agony?
why?
why such anger and disappointment?
because i am who i am
different than the rest
in more ways that none
in more ways than people think would be possible
why?
because im luis fernando mendoza
and such is my life
my story
my novel
the end.
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whats the deal-e-o ppl?! i dunno if anyone even cares for my entries but im bored so i shall type. im tired, i work and go to school, its some tiring shit, not to mention im always broke, but such is life. tuition is 2g's for 9 hours, not counting books which was another$300 easily, $95 of which i have yet to come up w/ to buy a book but eh, fuck it. anywayz, yvonne, mini or photo ipod, i sell them so if u want them, i can hook u up, and the photo, good luck finding anything smaller than a 60gb ipod in that, the 40 is rare for some reason. anywayz, uhm, yeah, i dunno what else to type, anyone got ideas?!
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Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"
October
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn'tpretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
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[04 Nov 2004|06:48pm] |
i dont understand a few things...
...for 1, how kerry is a better candidate for president than bush. i mean hell the man has his faults but he's not perfect, THEY'RE POLITICIANS DAMN IT! but if u gotta pick a poison out of two of them, then hell, bush has more character, he had the balls to do somethin when he had the chance, good or bad thats up for debate, kerry lacks character, but props to him for carisma, bush (is sad to say) about as dumb as the average american redneck (which although in houston if u look around u c the color mexican everwhere, along w/ black, this country is still mostly white), people usually want someone they can correlate w/ and sintiment w/, it makes no damn sense to me y ppl would pick kerry other than for the party reasons...
someone who voted or wanted kerry to win, im curious, y...
...and it has to b an intellectual reason behind it, not "im just tired of bush" or "bush is stupid"
based on credentials, y?
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[28 Oct 2004|09:43am] |
so i've had an amusing week to say/type the least. i went to mexi-motherfuckin-co this weekend, and holy shit, i had some fun. my homeboii went to go c his gal up there i went to get fucked up and fucked up i did. its so different over there, hell, when ppl saw how much i ate they'd b trippin askin me if i was ok or pregnant, i was like no, im not. anywayz, the original messican taco sux, i make better ones at home. although we did go to one place that made some badass tacos that werent small as shit. im supposed to go back in a month. tity bars over there r great, and not to mention messicans r fuckin lazy...
...they got drive thru liquor stores w/ fine ass chix sellin the shit to u. i specially liked the plaza. man, hot chix everywhere, sadly though, i still had a hangover at that time but nonetheless i still had fun.
i got a new job, im going to b a sprint "swatter". i dont swat flies, i sell sprint in different locations, or will rather, like at fry's or comp usa, depending on what zone they give me, which will more than likely b willowbrook. ima get paid $9/hour and $15 or $9 per phone i sell which isnt to bad, plus a few other spiffs i believe. i start trainin today, finish it up tomorrow and then will actually b workin somewhere on saturday. anywayz, ask not what your country can do for u, but tell it your rick james biatches!!!!
p.s. scrw bush and kerry
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[21 Oct 2004|11:08pm] |
| My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul |
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| Scrwdup goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as mr. abreham. | | blankspace gives you 13 yellow coffee-flavoured gummy bears. | | blue_pixy tricks you! You lose 5 pieces of candy! | | ducky_chic tricks you! You get a rotten egg. | | emo_sniff gives you 10 green peach-flavoured hard candies. | | ghostmanont3rd tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy! | | ickevwtc gives you 6 dark blue cherry-flavoured gummy bats. | | intox tricks you! You get a piece of paper. | | l0tus gives you 19 dark green apple-flavoured pieces of bubblegum. | | n0nchalance gives you 1 green strawberry-flavoured wafers. | | vivalabunny gives you 16 purple watermelon-flavoured gummy fruits. | | Scrwdup ends up with 59 pieces of candy, a rotten egg, and a piece of paper. | | Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern. |
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[05 Oct 2004|04:07pm] |
haha, u know its funny ass shit whenever high school drama catches up with your ass your freshman year in college. thats funny ass shit, and richard, he's fucked, no matter what way it gets put in, fucked like a gay man playin wide receiver in a full anal assault. lol, ok mayb a lil to graphical, but u get the point. anywayz, im bored as shit, i mean hell shit probably has more of an exciting time just layin there, waitin for flies to just surround it and goble it up like the 9 oclock delicassy that it is because think about it, nothing says bon-a-petit more than eatin shit so that you can peacefully shit at the end of the day, ah yes, a fly, its also probably y they only live 2 weeks but thats a whole nother story in its self, shit, and the neck high doo doo that richard is in is today's topic, anywayz, ltrZ ppl, and if u read this richard, i hope the mojo your jojo got was worth it man.
p.s. how do u get tired of smashin amy? i mean shit i saw her when i went up to school and i gotta give her props cuz from what she's gone to how she looks now, thats a mighty change...
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i didnt go to class today, im sleepy, im hungry, i have lots of shit to do, problem is, i dont feel like moving. i feel like a big fat ass, mckrell quality nigga. fuck man, its a fuckin tuesday, TUESDAY DAMN IT! ill probably go burn gas drivin around somewhere, agh! erica, ill get around to callin u, i woulda kept in touch w/ u, but evette's lil brother broke my old phone a while back and half the #'s that i had i lost, and i lost quite a few important ones may i add, that biznatch. anywayz, im a broke ass nigga, ill make about $150 this week, which will more than likely go towards bills. one of my homeboys keeps insistin that i go to mexicaca w/ him, and i just may if i have actual money to go. he tells me i need $50 to cover drinks and hoes at the titi bar and that he covers everything else, haber que pasa. anywayz, ima bizounce now, deuce.
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ok ok ok, so...
im goin to school, hot chix everywhere, none that really make me wanna talk to them though. class, easy ass hell, work, easy ass hell, although i wish i had it better, but for the most part i cant really complain. i work at the sprint store at west road every other day and say hi to ppl, literally. i get paid $8.50/hour to do that. i am in debt up my ass though so i wish i was already workin for this other guy that im supposed to b workin for in the galleria area. he's supposed to pay me at least $12/hour and $9/per phone i sell, but they were talkin about makin me assistant manager of the store, so that'd b tight, i know i could handle that.
this semester im bein lazy, only 6 hours of school, but ima kick it to another gear startin next semester takin 15 hours. anywayz, yeah, i guess thats enough for now, mayb ill start writin in this thing more often.
p.s. all that go to carver, i heard its boring now, what happened?
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ok, so life's a bitch, i still have that $505 ticket for ditching school so many times, and im still paying punishment time (no car) for that, although they're easin up a bit lettin me drive for food or errands so thats good. however, one of my 2 bank accounts is now -17.88 so thats not good. and my other account has like 5 bux soon to b none seeing as to how i got something i didnt need so ima b -30 in that one. im also going to b gettin a bank credit card that i had to pay 65 bux for, where ima get the money? who the fuck knows?! not to mention i owe evette 55 or 60 bux for a memory card and hell i cant even tell her when ima pay her back, much less that i miss her ass. anywayz, all in all, i still manage a smile from day to day amongst the getting pissed off at my lil bro, at my parents, at life, and how shit goes around here, and at the fact that i'm still not working, but hey, it'll get better. i mean hell if u lose hope then u got nothing right? anywayz, maurice just stumbled across something that might work, and is giving me ideas as to how make money. if i actually lived on the border i'd probably try it...
ScrwdUp1767: say negro, we should open up our own fried chicken place somewhere in the middle of acres homes
ScrwdUp1767: call it, "the grease lovers gourmet"
Agent00Pitre: we should open up a taco stand at the mexican border
Agent00Pitre: call it hideout
ScrwdUp1767: that would b fuckin dumb
ScrwdUp1767: they swim across the river w/ people lookin at them, what makes u think they give a fuck about border patrol
ScrwdUp1767: ?
Agent00Pitre: they could get a taco on the run. literally
and lord knows i can make some badass tacos. with the luck i always have though, my ass will get deported too though if i did that. anywayz, life is shit, but whenever it gets down, there's only a few things that can get u out of it...
your friends...
your music...
and yourself...
i mean shit, your friends r always there, sometimes it seems like they deserted your ass cuz u dont get a phone call or somethin, but they're there, sometimes we just gotta realize that the earth doesnt revolve around our asses,
the music on the other hand does, but if u keep listenin to depressin shit, like i used too, then fuck thats the only mood your gunna know. i was depressed for a while wasnt really til the end of my 11th grade year that i started snappin out of it. and then, thats when i came to a compromise w/ myself. life is shitty, but all this shit, all this miserable time i give my parents, all this trouble i always seem to get in (that i always get myself in) is gunna make for one hell of a story to amuse my children. i mean hell, whenever i start tellin people of my fuck ups, we have somethin to laugh about for at least an hour.
anywayz, all in all, life is shit at times, but i wouldnt trade myself in for any other person's life, because what we see is only the outer shell, hell for all you know they would wanna live like u do....
anywho, i dearly miss my amiga
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